All things mentioned below have been said and known to all of us, we srk fans leave no stone unturned to praise him, this is the first time i am pouring my heart on MSword.
(Writing this while listening to chaand tare, tod laau,saari duniya par main chaau, bas itna sa khwab hai)
Before i started, the obvious feeling came to my mind, will I be able to do justice ?, will I be able to put all my thoughts in words? , and then I thought it would be so unfair, if words had that ability to capture a personality. So here i go…….
A slice of my heart, the push of my life
My first non assignment article, trust me it really takes guts to lift your lazy bum, sit at a place introspect, retrospect and pen it down accordingly, i don’t think it would have been possible or started with none other than SRK, as I mentioned in the title,”THE PUSH”, he is definitely that push in my life, which encourages me, and millions like me to go for things which one loves, for which one can live for, one can die for
For some, including me whenever this name blinks on any sites,channels,posters, our sub-conscious mind never allows us from overcoming the thoughts of this man, He is like a god’s child, who has been brought to life, to love, to be loved and to inspire. I am not much into god, but if there is any supernatural power there, then i would whole heartedly thank him for bringing SHAHRUKH to life.
He has been that bright light when the gloom was dominant,that joyful smile when everything around was dull,dreary,cheerless. He is that generous human who gives to others, even after no one gave him anything when needed; he is that loyal husband who dared to marry a girl from another religion, in times when nation was going through a rough patch of communal tension. He is the same person who makes your mom sit in front of TV on Sundays shed a tear and say ‘I want that Rahul of K3G’ as my son. Not only as a charming Raj, but from intense coach Kabir khan of Chak de india to philanthrope Rizwan khan of MNIK . Effortlessly he brought cynic pricks on their knees and made them acknowledge his work.
Talking about the movies, acting which is probably secondary for me to admire him. Love was never out of stock in case of brand SRK. From loving your parents,wife,girlfriend,nation to loving your step brother. Through his movies, he successfully simplified the most complicated thing in this world ‘LOVE’.
I always wanted to share the impact, he had on me, never liked about writing sentences stating ’I’, but he is such a priceless possession that i cannot talk about him, without talking about, what he means to me. the feeling of achievement, excitement, numbness and melancholy. He is the only successful one to reach that undiscovered part of my heart. He is a catalyst in every event,every show, energies and passion overflow when he is on stage, love for him was never restricted till the movies, the human inside the star had always been worth more celebrating.
In an interview,
(( “when will you start making different movies?Better movies?”
SRK-“when will you start asking different questions?better questions?”
How come you are showered with everything from grace,charm,looks,humbleness and extraordinary sense of humour.? ))
The mystery behind you being such a towering personality is a hard nut to crack, and there might be no specific reason or rocket science behind it, i think everyday you wake up to be a better person,shower more blessings and spread more love.
As i am writing this to you, there are so many things inside me that, at the same time i am asking you questions and myself giving the answers. Comforting myself with assumed responses. You will never know, how badly i miss you daily. I had a dichotomy in my life, the days before i met you and after it.
Just point a finger on anyone outside your house chanting your name, any of your 5.5 million followers on twitter, i am just one of them, and very much proud to be one of them , you know what, you might enjoy all the stardom standing on that end, but you are really missing what we feel about you, think about you, on the other side . you will never get the feeling of being a SRK follower. There we are lucky ,not you.
(My love for you and my long lengthy love letter for you doesn’t mean that i forgave you for wankhede brawl, Chennai express and the most important Ra one, okay so don’t get me wrong.)
But why is it that Shahrukh even when in solitude, its you who go through my mind, no one else. Sometimes i even think am I so immature that i rant about you all the time ?, fight for you, care for you , as if i have a blood relation with you,as you are a third person from a third world, who doesn’t even know that if i exist, but you once said, blood relations are imposed on us, relations which we make by our choice are the real and stronger ones. so so so true.
i have developed a forced myth of you being there for me , whenever whatever happens, i always think you are there by my side, I shouldn’t worry, your hand is always there over my head, so i have stopped bothering about what people think about me, thinking about you.
From being an actor, how is it possible for you to enlighten us with your wisdom? you are like an institution for me, you are my only festival, my happiness, my wealth, my greed, my idol and if god exists then you are surely my lord. i often used to think that, I hyperventilate on being concerned about you and loving you ?, but i never regret it, because I knew for sometime, somewhere, someday, this thought came across my mind, and that was enough to stand by it. (so even I contribute in making you feel special and loved :p )okay i will cut down the questions now.
Last year i was there in front of your house, on your birthday the grand mannat, you changed it from jannat to mannat, if i am not wrong, you build a home for yourself but eventually it became a temple for us. I moved ‘even and earth’ like a mad crazy cliché fan going gaga over your birthday, i was the only fortunate one to shake hands with you unlike the thousands, who were yelling,screaming,dying,crying for the single glimpse of yours. I don’t know why i cried and when i started crying , i don’t know if that was desperation ?, the feeling of you going back in a while or the tears of happiness ?, or that finally you are there in front of me. Or might be ( the security men pulling me , stopping me from reaching you 😀 )
You know what , you are that adrenaline rush for me, i never expected from my not-so-fit body to jump down 7 floors by staircase before the lift arrives.I always knew that the crossed line is always the starting point, so without thinking about the circumstances, I decided that I just want to reach near you, i knew that there was no formula, procedure or rule to meet you, there was just instinct and belief which made possible for me to have a little bit of you that day. Seeing you in front of my eyes in ‘flesh and blood,’ nothing can beat that feeling; I realized that i have been brought to life for the sole reason of attaining this nirvana.
You were so kind, patient, busy spreading love and happiness in bulk, it left me mesmerized, I love you wearing that v neck tee with ripped blue denims, eyes full of dreams and hopes, heart full of love and care, surrounded by pride, still down to earth. Such super human you are SHAH.
So concluding it now with (kabhi alvida na kehna playing in the background), and unknowingly my eyes are moist, tight hug to you. Ending it with wanting to write more and hoping to see you soon, take care Shahrukh, you are already living more in less time, or else i would have said, don’t smoke, its really injurious to health. 😀
Remembering that ‘itni shiddat se tumhein pane ki……’ dialogue .now come on universe please do your job. I wish you a very happy birthday, happy diwali and a prosperous new year.
Keep breathing that is enough for us.